Thyoliday Blues and Truths

by Anastasia on December 21, 2009

Thyoliday-Blues-and-Truths7-270x300I WAS SO TOUCHED WHEN Katie Schwartz of Dear Thyroid fame asked me to participate in blogging community effort to raise awareness for thyroid diseases and cancers. When it comes to blues and truths of the ol’ butterfly gland, I’ve got plenty. So here goes…

Thyroid diseases and thyroid cancers are fun, right? Unfortunately not; they deeply affect us as patients and our families, indelibly leaving an imprint on our minds, bodies and souls. None of it is easy. If we’re going to bring awareness to this disease, we have to come together as a family. Our collective voices have the power to invoke change. Because the holidays are a time of celebration with the people we love and a time to reflect, what better way to ignite change, and move our stories forward, oh and have a laugh along the way, than to connect with each other?

1) Have the holidays and your experience of them changed since you’ve been diagnosed?

Since I was diagnosed with Graves Disease six years ago this winter (yikes six years!), I’ve basically spend my whole adult life living with a cranky butterfly gland. During these years, everything about my life—holidays included—have drastically changed. Not just because of a hyperactive thyroid, but because this has been turbo-transitional time for me. That being said, my ability to knock out a killer holiday party with a steaming cup of good cheer has been significantly modified by my Graves Disease. And returning home for the holidays always means my disease is under a magnifying glass. My immediate family always wants to know how I’m feeling and whether I’m making the right decisions for my health. I’m pretty sure my mother is hiding a daily log during the holidays of how swollen my thyroid is / how dark the circles under my eyes are / how much sleep I’m getting, just so she can stay on the ball. Of course, she means well. But I’m convinced that this kind of motherly behavior is the only thing that will drive a girl more insane than an overactive thyroid.

2) What is your favorite holiday food/dish from childhood? What is your favorite dish now? (Did you have to change your diet at all since being diagnosed?)

I was quite lucky to have grown up in an oasis of health food. I was raised a vegetarian by my parents and still maintain that lifestyle today. As a child, I used to love dairy-heavy foods like macaroni and cheese. (I even used to sneak away to eat whipped butter from the tub with a spoon!) These days, I’m still a sucker for cream, but it’s always hormone free!

I guess since being diagnosed I’ve had an opposite experience with food than many people: I found myself returning to my roots. Throughout my childhood, my mom always pushed a diet of whole grains and veggies with moderate consumption of animal products. And while searching for wellness in the past several years, I’ve turned back to her staid advice.

3) How do you get through the stress of the holidays, paired with a disease? What are your coping strategies?

This time of year, I just try to remind myself to keep breathing. It’s surprisingly easy to forget about that when you’re in a store so crowded that it’s heated solely by the friction of customers’ wool coats and you find yourself in an impromptu shoving match over a shelf of whoopee cushions. Yes, just breathe.

4) Have you thought about submitting a letter to Dear Thyroid? If so, would your letter be a love letter or a hate letter? Would it be to your thyroid or from your thyroid?

I’ve written several letters to Dear Thyroid. Some hate mail, some desperate pleas, and some with love. It’s certainly been therapeutic to be a part of the Dear Thyroid support network.

5) What is the greatest misconception regarding thyroid disease and thyroid cancer?

I think many people who are coping with Graves Disease (I can’t speak to other thyroid diseases or thyroid cancer), are often viewed as weak or lazy by people from a distance because many of the symptoms resemble general malaise. It’s hard to convince members of a very work-oriented society that fatigue, sluggishness, or an inability to concentrate are a part of a serious illness and not just a sign that you’re slacking off.

6) What is the stupidest thing someone has said to you regarding your illness that, to this day, still makes you laugh or makes you angry?

I’ve found a lot of resistance in the medical community toward my decision to treat my illness with alternative care. Some doctors and nurses have given me compassionate advice while standing by me. But I once had a nurse practitioner threaten me by saying I would surely die if I didn’t go through with the radioactive iodine treatment.  She was so bossy and insensitive to my needs! I’m wincing even writing about it right now. But I feel a little more vindicated every day that I prove that quack nurse wrong!


Dear Thyroid is a literary thyroid support community and blog. Thyroid patients are invited to submit Dear Thyroid letters; love letters and hate letters, among other thyroid literary things, such as Thyrants, Thygraphs, Thykus, Thyetry and Thysongs, etc. Our goals are for all of us as a community of patients to connect with each other and our diseases, and to bring awareness to thyroid diseases and thyroid cancers, we need and deserve a face and a voice. For our non-literary crew, we have monthly Flickr pools. Recently, we launched Dear Thyroid Local Meet Ups for offline support. Dear Thyroid Forums are forthcoming in December.

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Katie December 21, 2009 at 11:43 am

My darling Anastasia;

This is an absolutely beautiful post!

I love your honesty, as always. I’d also love to know what you’re doing to treat your Graves’ disease alternatively. You must, if you’re up for it, share it with us. CONGRATULATIONS on your success doing as much.

I love your ma. She sounds amazing.

Thank you for participating in this, my love.


Anastasia December 21, 2009 at 12:21 pm

Dear Katie,

Thanks for letting me be a part of this great community! I’d love to give more detail on all my wild web of alternative health techniques and practices. That will be my next installment for Dear Thyroid, by request from you.

I can’t wait to tell my mother that she has a fan in the greater thyrant community! That will make her day.

P C d-lite December 21, 2009 at 5:23 pm

Dear Sweet Anastasia
My Christmas wish would be that your butterfly would morph into a rainbow and fill your heart with light and color …. once; and for all TIME.
Thank you again for sharing what it is like to be on a ROLLER COASTER that won’t stop to let you get off !!!!
HAPPY Thyoliday

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